Billy Coffey
Billy Coffey

A writer’s problem

December 9, 2009  

notebook01Simple words can become clever phrases
And chapters can turn into books
Yes if I could just get it on paper
But it’s harder than it ever looks
–Jimmy Buffett

 

Sitting here on the table beside me is a two-inch-thick stack of paper that comprises all 53,647 words of my novel. My editor at FaithWords, Holly Halverson, emailed the final edits late last week with this warning—this would be my last chance to make any substantive changes. After that the manuscript would be sent to typesetting, and I would only be able to correct typos.

I printed the book out and spent the weekend going over the usual suspects of flow and plot and voice. I smiled and pondered and swallowed a lump or two that developed in my throat, and then I turned the last page facedown.

I’ve read that manuscript countless times in the past year, but that occasion seemed to possess an air of finality. There had been many times when I felt my book to be done, though it was a done with an ellipsis following—done…for now. But at that moment things seemed to change. Then my book seemed more like Done with a period.

I turned the pages over and began reading again, this time forgoing attention to all the technicalities of what makes a book and instead concentrating on this one point—did I say what I meant to say? Because in the end, that’s what mattered.

A writer’s true passion isn’t selling books or reaching an audience, though both are certainly in the top three. No, it’s the pursuit of that perfect sentence. It’s saying something new in a way that has never been said before.

It’s saying what you mean to say.

That notion seems so uncomplicated and effortless, but in fact it’s just the opposite.

 

The difference between the right word and almost the right word is really a large matter—it’s the difference between the lightning and the lightning bug.
–Mark Twain

 

Reading the book with that in mind didn’t change its quality or appeal, at least not to me. It’s a great story that offers what people need most in these times. It will make you laugh and cry and believe and—most of all—open your eyes to a world that exists just below what your eyes and ears cannot perceive but what your heart most certainly can.

Did I say what I meant to say?

Yes. No, too.

A book is never as good as it’s author thinks it could be. Should be. We’ll never quite get them just right. There will always be a clearer way to say something or a better story to tell. A writer will fail at that endeavor just as he or she will fail at anything else. We are strange creatures, knowing that perfection is impossible and yet aiming for it anyway.

When we take pen to paper we embark on a journey for only the stoutest heart. Our existence is a constant state of wandering. Like knights of old, we are questing for our own grail, battling the dragons within us. Always searching, never quite finding.

And in our deepest hearts, hoping we never will.

 

A writer’s problem does not change. He himself changes and the world he lives in changes but this problem remains the same. It is how to write truly and having found what is true, to project it in such a way that it becomes a part of the experience of the person who reads it.
–Ernest Hemmingway

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Comments

  • Katdish

    “When we take pen to paper we embark on a journey for only the stoutest heart. Our existence is a constant state of wandering. Like knights of old, we are questing for our own grail, battling the dragons within us. Always searching, never quite finding.”

    - Billy Coffey

    (get used to seeing that)

  • http://clarity-chaos.blogspot.com Boy Crazy (@claritychaos)

    Congratulations. And really – you got this spot on.

  • http://marlataviano.com Marla Taviano

    I so get this. Beautifully said.

  • http://bzzbyannies.blogspot.com Annie K

    You’ll just have to trust that the words are exactly the way they need to be…

  • http://gmarietaylor.com ginger

    First- How exciting. How I want what you have. It some how seems so impossible yet you talk of how I feel, what I wonder, and of how I doubt. It give me hope that I may someday be feeling as you do at this moment. You’ve climbed that mountain, the peak is in sight. You have been given a gift. Have faith in it.

  • http://www.steeletheday.com Candy

    This is an advent of sorts, and I cannot wait patiently.

    Quoting Buffett, Twain, & Hemingway in a single post? You are a human casserole, Mr. Coffey.

    Nope, can’t wait.

  • http://jeanmatthewhall.com Jean Hall

    How cool is that?

    Your first book. Congratulations, Bill.

    Your thoughts are beautifully written today.

    Jean
    http://www.jeanmatthewhallwords.blogspot.com

  • http://sbreef.blogspot.com Shark Bait

    “Fill your paper with the breathings of your heart” – William Wordsworth

  • http://chrislivessimple.blogspot.com chris

    The really great books can be read by many through the prism of individual experience, and then they take away the part with the greatest meaning FOR THEM.
    I paint,
    I find that what I am trying to say is often altered by the person viewing it.
    Which is what makes art so wonderful.
    I think you will end up shocked by the multiplicity of things in your books that people find, that you had no idea was there.
    Good luck with your book. I hope it excells.

  • http://building-his-body.blogspot.com/ Anne Lang Bundy

    Billy, there was a time some months back when I introduced your writing to a friend as “profound truth plain and pure.” That opinion hasn’t changed.

    Much love,
    Annie

  • http://heathersunseri.blogspot.com Heather Sunseri

    Your words are beautiful, Billy. I’m sure you said what you meant to say, and I’m even more certain you’ll find more to say in your next book. I’m counting on that. Congratulations on reaching this milestone! I love that look into your writing life.

  • http://www.janetober.com Janet Oberholtzer

    Congrats on being another step closer to finished!
    Thanks for the encouragement! As a writer miles away from holding an almost-finished manuscript in my hands, its nice to know others struggle to get the words on paper also.

  • http://forevrenevernalways1.blogspot.com Jill

    Billy – this was beautiful!

    “To have your readers feel as though the experience is their own”…isn’t that what God wants from us every time we read His living word?

    You do it beautifully Billy – with grace, honor and sincerity of heart!

    May the final reading give you peace and trust that it is perfect as God would have it for all of us to read!

    Blessings,
    Jill

  • http://shortybearsplace.blogspot.com/ Denise

    Beyond lovely.

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  • http://thoughtsthatmove.blogspot.com/ Wendy

    Appreciated the comparison to knights of old. Strong one.
    My kids have a snow day from school. Know what that made me think of…your book. Nice title.
    ~ Wendy

  • Barbara Frazier

    I CAN’T WAIT!!!

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  • http://www.moonboatcafe.com Cassandra Frear

    I have loved that quote by Mark Twain for a long time.

    I’m looking for lightning. If I am lucky, I just might get struck.

  • http://www.lynnrush.com Lynn Rush

    Fantastic post, Billy. God’s driving your car, so no need to worry.

  • http://lorilundquist@blogspot.com Lori Lundquist

    A portrait of a writer. Funny how the same words can apply to so many different kinds of people personality/interest/background-wise. But on these points, as writers, we can ALL get it. I agree. With everything. Write on!

  • http://www.jeannedamoff.com Jeanne Damoff

    Well said, sir. I know exactly what you mean about the “done” with an ellipsis and the “done” with a period. I believe the best books are like fine wine. The seed, the stalk, the fruit, the juice, and then the cellar. Done, for now. That “for now” is the difference between Welch’s and Cabernet Sauvignon. Both are wet. Only one dances on the tongue.

    The final “done” is a moment worth savoring. Enjoy yours. Can’t wait to taste the results.

  • http://www.pridelandsmommy.blogspot.com *~Michelle~*

    So excited and proud of you….

    I know you said that “A book is never as good as it’s author thinks it could be. Should be. ”

    well, I pray that you are as proud as you should be with your novel…..that your heart is beaming, almost bursting with pride. I know you are so humble, but you deserve to feel honor and satisfaction in your heart. Consider it a gift/reward from God, the ultimate Author.

  • http://www.juliegillies.com Julie Gillies

    What an exciting position to be in, Billy. I’m thrilled for you. And somehow, I’m absolutely certain you’ve said just what you meant to.

  • http://writingwithoutpaper.blogspot.com Maureen

    The most difficult thing for those of us who write is letting go.

    I’ve been on both sides, as the writer who has to meet deadlines and as the editor-manager who has to impose them. Without the deadlines. . . well, we all know what happens without the deadlines.

    Even God set himself some deadlines. . . one the first day, etc., and then He let go and rested. What He created is a joy to behold.

    I’m sure what you’ve created will be a joy to hold, too, because it comes from that place where He resides in you.

  • http://www.faithbarista.com Bonnie Gray | FaithBarista

    Congratulations on stringing together 53,647 words into the masterful sentences into a book!

    “It will make you laugh and cry and believe and—most of all—open your eyes to a world that exists just below what your eyes and ears cannot perceive but what your heart most certainly can.”

    My fave — Your aim to do this is found behind the heartbeats behind your words, Billy.

    I hope you have peace in closing those final edits — trusting in the Voice behind all that Coffey. I have come to find it echoing in your humor and your stories. Can’t wait!

    You expressed my turning and tossing about words so eloquently, as I reflected on the gift journaling yesterday —
    http://www.faithbarista.com/2009/12/the-journal/ — Thank you.

  • http://www.lovewell.blogpost.com Kelly @ Love Well

    There’s a God-ness in that quest for perfection, isn’t there? A holiness? I sense it. It’s why I’m left frustrated at the piece that’s close but not exactly what I want to say. It’s also why I feel so deeply satisfied that I have a way to create at all.

  • Kathleen

    Can’t wait to hold this good read in my hands, to turn the pages.

  • http://stuffchristianculturelikes.com stephy

    I really like that Mark Twain quote!

  • http://blog.breakthroughalaska.com jasonS

    That’s so exciting, Billy! Congratulations on working so hard and seeing God do amazing things. I haven’t written an entire book (yet) but I know what you mean. As I’ve made worship albums, I try to get them right so that they sound “perfect” but it never happens. I’ve thought that if I had more money or time, it would be just right, but I don’t think that’s true. All you can do is struggle to bring it out of you then send it on its way.

    Can’t wait to read it!

  • http://blog.hafchurch.org/peter Peter P

    It’s DONE!!!!

    Awesome!

    Great post, but I’m excited that it’s DONE!

  • http://godsheart-heart2heart.blogspot.com Kat

    As always looking forward to seeing your book on the New York Times best seller list! Yours is bound to be great!

    Love and Hugs ~ Kat

  • http://jodyhedlund.blogspot.com Jody Hedlund

    Billy,
    Well said. I can totally relate with the desire to keep on trying to get the words right. When I sent in my rewrites just a couple of weeks ago, I kept turning the pages and I always found something I wanted to change. Finally I just had to say, enough. And I’m praying my editor will now take the story and turn my glitches to gold.

  • http://joannesher.blogspot.com Joanne Sher

    Beautiful and SO full of truth, Billy. Haven’t been there yet, but getting closer all the time. Blessings! (and I thought of you today too when the kids had school cancelled!)

  • http://www.katieganshert.blogspot.com Katie Ganshert

    This post, especially the last part, made the air in my trachea get all thick and soupy, like it wouldn’t move right. This post spoke words that I could never express so beautifully, but resonate in my heart. I. Can. Not. Wait. to get a hold of your book!

  • http://roxanesalonen.blogspot.com Roxane B. Salonen

    Billy, the really cool thing about this is that even when you’ve made your final-final correction, there’s always the next book. I have heard it said that every writer has basically one story to tell, and you will find that story told in many different ways, but at bottom, the same message is there. So, if you didn’t get it perfectly this time, you can keep telling your story, though differently, next time around. You won’t run out of words until God says, “It is finished.” And at that point, words will not suffice. Blessings in the journey ahead!

  • http://www.teresaslack.com teresa slack

    Beautifully written. I wouldn’t worry too much if I had your way with words…if only.

  • http://dougspurling.blogspot.com/ Doug Spurling

    “Like knights of old, we are questing for our own grail, battling the dragons within us. Always searching, never quite finding.” Wish I’d thought of that. I love it.

    Billy,
    Ernest said, the writer changes, the world changes, the problem remains the same.
    Finding the truth.

    I can see you have found the TRUTH. And you share that Truth using your God given gift with grace.

    A man’s gift makes room for him, And brings him before great men.Proverbs 18:16

    God Bless as you continue to share your Christmas-all-year heart.

    Thank you.

    Merry Christmas.

  • http://www.endeanmom1.blogspot.com Beth

    What a wonderful time in your life, Billy. I’m so very happy for you!

    Looking forward to buying your book!

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  • http://trainstutusandtwizzlers.wordpress.com Corinne

    Very well said. So excited to read your book when it comes out. And like others have said, get used to seeing yourself quoted, because you’re just that good!

  • http://thechocolatechipwaffle.blogspot.com/ Terresa Wellborn

    I’m new to your blog, but you are a master of words, that I can tell. Congrats to you on your journey thus far. Your book, I have a feeling, will be brilliant!

    PS: Great Twain & Hemingway quotes. I have a thing for quotes & will be using these as mantras in the future.

  • http://www.heartrocklife.blogspot.com sharilyn

    all i have to say is… i can barely stand the wait!!! i’m so excited to read your book… spring, please hurry!! :)

  • http://www.heartrocklife.blogspot.com sharilyn

    ps. i’ve already been saying “my friend billy coffey said…” for a year now!! :)

  • http://www.gettingdownwithjesus.blogspot.com Jennifer @ GDWJ

    I join the chorus of rejoicing. Well done, friend.

  • http://lauraboggess.blogspot.com laura

    happy scream with much jumping up and down! can’t wait to get my hot little hands on it!

    just. breathe. deeply. that’s gratitude exhaled.

  • http://seedlingsinstone.blogspot.com L.L. Barkat

    Okay… why did I think “Snow Day” was non-fiction? :)

  • Melanie

    I cannot wait to read your book!!

    Melanie

  • http://www.prairiebren.blogspot.com ~Brenda

    Congrats, Billy. I hope to join the ranks in a few years. :)

    And as usual … beautifully said.

    ~Brenda

  • http://www.BridgetChumbley.com Bridget

    Beautifully written, Billy. Always such wisdom, truth and heart in your words!